Talk & Speak

I think I just found out the ultimate reason why I prefer to stay silent when sitting down with people, not talking much. I would usually just conclude myself as a boring person, having nothing to say or to tell or to share and somehow that kind of bring down my level of self-esteem sometimes.

The fact is, what really happen, when I'm around people that I'm comfortable with, I'm a different person. I sure have lots to talk about. What I diagnosed myself with just now was this problem with poor vocabulary be it English, Malay or the other two languages I speak. On a scale of 1 to 10, not any of the language I speak is as fluent as, probably 7. In other words, my vocabulary is poor.

I sure have lots of story to tell but subconsciously, I choose to keep it to myself because I'm afraid it would be boring. Why? Because it happened. When you try to tell a story, you have to be confident. You cannot stutter. You cannot have a long pause. You must have a proper storyline. All of these, take into account, you would make a good story teller and better yet, you don't bore people when you're socializing.

So, as to relate between having a poor vocabulary and the effects on your speaking and talking - when you don't know how to convey certain things through words; for example, you don't how certain actions or verbs are called or perhaps you have no idea what certain things are called - it could really mess up your speech. That would result you being a stutter and pause for as long as the TV commercial breaks. Simple as that.

Well, I'm sure there are few more reasons to this matter. If I'm quiet, maybe it's just one of these days where I don't feel like talking. Yes, I do have this kind of thing. Sometimes, I think talking or speaking consumes so much energy that I could get tired easily and annoyed and I would swallow my words or mumble or something. One thing for sure though, if I'm quiet, it would never be because of the 'time of the month'. I don't, have, 'the time of the month'. That's a joke. :D